Inspiration to blog

Wowzers.....I haven't been on in ages!!! So much has happened to me since my last blog. I feel like my life has completely changed around...all for the good, though. I've changed my priorities and am trying to live my life better. I feel like God has lifted the veil from my eyes and I now see clearly what it is that He wants me to do. I am deeply ashamed of how I had chosen the wider path that so many others are on...only because it was more fun, it seemed "the norm", and my stubborn pride refused to remove the blinds.

I went on a short term mission trip to Bolivia in August 2009. I can honestly say that this trip changed my life. I saw things there that I've heard of, but never personally experienced in all of my life. When I think back to how I used to be, the person that I was...wowzers....I was such a self-absorbed, selfish, inconsiderate person! And I think to myself....how did I get to be like that when all my life growing up with my family, my parents taught me better.

Yeah...it took God stripping me of my pride, my stubbornness. It took God bringing me down to my lowest to realize what I had become and I hated myself and the person that I was. After the trip, I told myself that I was going to do better. That I know now that God didn't create me to live my life my way...but to live my life His way so that He may live through me. And so I try...I have various struggles daily; yet, I still try because it's all that I can do. What I didn't realize when I made the decision to choose God and His ways, was that He has this wonderful journey for me to embark on. He has a purpose for me so that I can start utilizing the gifts and skills that He personally gave me. So...here I am. I am ready to do His will; and somehow in my own little way, try to fulfill His purpose for me.